#afictionalstory

These soothing reflective moments are the reason why I climb up this hill. I climbed alone just like in the old days when I had just got my placement. The same place that I have been working for quite a while. I have never found a reason to leave. Oddly, I have let go of some unrealistic expectations but I still cringe about a few that are not right. Sometimes I speak, and sometimes I ignore them: suffocating my pride. The realization makes me chuckle, I haven’t matured.

My possessions should have quenched my thirst but I still hunger. I still Love more, like better need urgently. Still immature, I can’t stop throwing my dirty underwear in the laundry: it’s always a score. 

I am finding peace with these mishaps and coming to terms with the fact that the woman I love has a child. Meanwhile, I still struggle to accept her ex-husband, now a caring father this is not what I asked for. 

I guess I will find my way…

©Joeln